Greetings all!

[shnoosh]

Hi! My name is Ben, and I stumbled across this site through a google search as recently I have been having some bad days at my new job with my stutter. It seems as though it is just randomly popped up.

A bit of backround, I am from New Zealand, 30 years old and just got back from 2.5 years in the UK. I work as a financial analyst and just got a great job with company here in NZ. I have been there maybe 6 weeks now and the work is going ok, its just that my stutter is much worse than it has been in the past.

What confuses me is that I was pretty much fine in the UK and even when I just got back in NZ. I would go to meet people from recruitment companies, go to job interviews and be fine, sometimes I am sure people could not even tell I have a stutter.
In my current job I interviewed pretty much fine with the guy who is now my boss, and fine with his boss. But I had a meeting with them both today where I had to present a report and I was a mess. I could probably count the number of fluent sentences I got out on one hand!
Then afterwards I spoke to my boss I was fine. And then at the end of the day my bosses boss came up to me and said relax, don't be intimidated and I talked to him for about 5 mins about it and was fine.

Its always been a minor problem, but now it seems to be getting worse. At its worst I can even talk really and just want to vanish. I keepp wanting to replay the situation and talk normally like I know I can and have done in the past, but for some reason at the moment I can't control it.

Although I do say with out this so called impediment life would be just too easy :)

[Standingtall]

Welcome Ben, it is a good thing you stumble upon this site during your search. Looking forward in what have to share with us.

[divisi]

Hi!! What you mention is quite common for most of us who stutter... when you've some important change in your life, it usually affects your fluency, specially if that change implies some kind of challenge, or trouble, or emotional stress.

Welcome to the forums! I look forward to your contributions!

[3FingerBrown]

Shnoosh,
Welcome aboard and congratulations on your new job!!!
Divisi is correct that any major change in life like moving or getting a new job will stress anybody's system and added stress can make you more disfluent.

Don't fear that you are spiraling out of control or anything like that, you are just outside of your comfort zones and you'll need a little time to adjust.
Sounds like your boss and his boss are very open and nice and they already acknowledged you stutter.

Don't ruminate about what you could have differently, just know that even if you are thrilled and excited that on some level your system has been taxed and stressed and there is no reason to catastrophize and assume the worst.
We all have good days and bad days with our speech and a bad day today does not necessarily translate into a bad day tomorrow.
Chalk it up for what it WAS and to take some pressure off yourself and kill the giant pink elephant in the room, consider asking your coworkers and boss if they have any questions about your stutter.
Congratulations on the job and the move and I'm glad you found us here.
Ari

[shnoosh]

Hey thanks for the support everyone.
It has not been so bad the last 2 weeks, work has been fine since then, I even close to a 100% clear day today.

Have had to sort out a difficult insurance cl which meant lots of phone time and later this week at work have a meeting with 6 people all of whom I have to ask a bunch of questions.. am looking forward to it.

[bignick]

Greetings Ben,

Nice to have you on the forum.

Nick

[shnoosh]

well had my big meeting today, only 3 people showed up. I did not feel intimidated so was "normal". - yeah i stuttered a bit but nothing I was uncomfortable with.
Actually had 2 other meetings today, but they where minor ones, so no problems.