Heeeeelp!

[nbakunda]

I havent posted her for a while now and i've just gotten back from Sudan. its all thats on TV and more. when i left i was well on my way to fluency but now, i'm back right where i started.
this forum gave me the psche to go out and take risks that i would never have otherwise. and that has stayed thankgod. i guess i thought even though i wasnt a better speaker, i was better person, braver and somwhat more in acceptance of my lot. however, when i came back, eves descendant, my wife to be was pregnant. oh theyre mine for sure but a week ago i found out that she was carrying twin boys.
i dont hate babies. or twins, but the thought of twin boys is scary.
one because the timing is all ed up, i live and work in SUDAN!
and two because i am worried stiff they will stutter, and three because i just dont think i can be a father. i dont talk, i have negligible amounts of confidence, i'm just struggling to begin to come into my own and the jury's out on when( and whether) that will happen.
and four, i love NIKI but the thought of marriage now is like the thought of going to hell. plus she's not making it very easy. HORMONES. these days she doesnt just throw shit around, she just kicks me out the house every 5 or six hours.
i want to do the right thing. i mean the babies cant be sent back, and secretely i'd love o meet them, but DAMN! (see in real life i'd have stuttered there.)
But DAMN!
i'm thinking of erecting a tent outside. :eek:
HEEEELP!
i guess i'm like that proverbial worshipper, talks to god only when he's in deep shit

NATE

[Standingtall]

Nate,

Twin Boys, wow, congratulations!!!!! I got twin girls and they are my world, as I am theirs. I had fun with other woman, when they ask me how lucky I am to have twins. I always tell them, I am not telling them my secret, gets them laughting all the time.

It is understandable to have your fears, I suspect those are your first. I'm sure my own fathers had his doudts when I was conceived and born. My girls do stutter, but they have every right to experience life, with its ups and downs. I can prepare them to the best of my ability, because I was not prepared when I was growing up. I am hoping they would out grow their stutter, but I am also preparing them. There are many role models, successful PWS and we don't know what the future holds for them. They could discover a cure in the next year or 5. I am sure you will do fine with your new sons and believe me, there is nothing you won't do for your sons and their upbringing.

I can't help you with your wife to be, or your up coming (shot Gun) wedding. I guess you make up must be very intense, you got twins coming. :D

[Dianne]

Don't be pushed into a marriage that you have doubts over I feel you need to be 100 percent certain that you want the marriage,otherwise you offer your finanacial support to your twins and support them all you can-you should have thought about the consequences of having when you did as it seems you had plans that didn't include a wife and family.What ever you do make sure that you can live with the outcome and think clearly about what is best for everyone invovled.I stutter but my children don't so as fasr as that problem goes only time will tell but if they should develop a stutter they will be lucky to have you for advice and help.