Dysrythm
03-03-2009, 08:22 AM
I'm 28 just turn that this year.. and i've been stuttering for as long as i can remember. I've gone through bouts and streches of perfect speach i so longed for, then the stutter would come back and pin me down.
For awhile i was communicating through writing notes or taking a pad of paper with me and handing notes over to my waitress with it saying i had Laryngitis (sp?)
I've taken speach therapy and it helped but all they did was chow me how to hide it and it worked but people still made fun of me because i talked different then of the usual stutter.
I used to feel if i didn't have my stutter my life would be different and i'd have that surge of self confidence that i got while drinking or doing other forms of illicit drugs.
I never thought i would get married i mean sure i dated from time to time but nothing serious and then i met my wife and everything fell into place as i like to say.. We now have a beautiful 9month old girl and she is the light in my eye. I used to wonder if i would pass this curse on to my Daughter and sometimes when i think about it i get sad and emotional because it still brings up wounds that i thought healed but never did. If she does i know i will be able to support her with it.
My wife says i don't stutter much around her and its true i don't but i catch myself stuttering 85% of the time... and i don't like it..
I tried singing in a band and LOL it worked while i was singing but not too well in the afterparty.. lol
Sorry for the long post and intro.. i just don't have anyone to relay these thoughts to, others try to relate but they still don't understand
Thankx Again
For awhile i was communicating through writing notes or taking a pad of paper with me and handing notes over to my waitress with it saying i had Laryngitis (sp?)
I've taken speach therapy and it helped but all they did was chow me how to hide it and it worked but people still made fun of me because i talked different then of the usual stutter.
I used to feel if i didn't have my stutter my life would be different and i'd have that surge of self confidence that i got while drinking or doing other forms of illicit drugs.
I never thought i would get married i mean sure i dated from time to time but nothing serious and then i met my wife and everything fell into place as i like to say.. We now have a beautiful 9month old girl and she is the light in my eye. I used to wonder if i would pass this curse on to my Daughter and sometimes when i think about it i get sad and emotional because it still brings up wounds that i thought healed but never did. If she does i know i will be able to support her with it.
My wife says i don't stutter much around her and its true i don't but i catch myself stuttering 85% of the time... and i don't like it..
I tried singing in a band and LOL it worked while i was singing but not too well in the afterparty.. lol
Sorry for the long post and intro.. i just don't have anyone to relay these thoughts to, others try to relate but they still don't understand
Thankx Again