A Shameful Flaw

[DisfluentGirl]

I'm drowning in despair.
It's just not fair.
It's more than I can bare.

I don't want to get out of bed.
I'm sick of the battle in my head.
Sometimes I wish that I was dead.

I open my mouth and my heart breaks.
Oh how my spirit aches.
You don't know how much effort one word takes.

I'm so confused.
My soul is bruised.
And yet you stand there and look amused.

You laugh and treat me like a clown.
And yet you expect me not to frown?
Oh why does my voice have to drag me down?

My dreams are being robbed from me.
This problem just won't let me be.
My own screams echo inside of me.
I'd rather be an amputee.

My heart hurts so much.
I'm tired of this stupid crutch.
Why does God torture me so much?

I may seem happy but it's fake.
I don't know how much more I can take.
Am I just one big mistake?
I can't stand to be awake.

People don't know what I conceal.
I've tried so hard to make it heal.
At times it feels so surreal.
But honestly, it's the deepest pain you'll ever feel.

[Sam1]

Thanks DGirl, I like your poem. Here's one I just wrote, same sort of theme but a slightly different philosophy:


Flowers bloom and die
The wind's caress turned to lies
A mind awash in the Ruby rose's reflected flood,
A million fish now left drowning in the mud

Every step is one made half asleep,
What good a thought unrealised?
The submissive agony of the worker bee,
An ocean of air or a bucket of security

But if I tear it apart, this castle of sand,
What would be left standing?
Am I ready to start, or is it better to be wrong,
I don't want to die without any scars

[Raye]

Wow.

Are these lyrics? Or poems? I really like them...and agree with literally every line. I like the last stanza most, the rhymes are so cleverly arranged: )

Now I think that maybe people who stutter are all gifted human beings. Makes me have more confidence in myself lol, don't give up!!