the weirdest day

[nbakunda]

last night my girlfriend took me out to her best friends party. we dont go out much so she hardly ever sees me interact with other people. by the way when i talk to her i'm pretty fluent, or rather as fluent as i ever am. unless ofcourse she is arguing. she is a doctor and she is way brighter than me. plus of course women r always right. anywho i met a few people there that i absoinlutely had to say something to because i didnt want to seem like a psycho and i blocked and stuttered so badly i nearly died of shame. one of her doctor buddies asked me what i did then excused himself in mid stutter. it took that long.
all the while niki, my girl is looking at me in utter shock. after a while i said i wanted to leave and she obliged and in the car she says
"your speech is really really bad babe. 2morro come to the hospital and i'll refer u to doctor so and so and maybe he can help a bit. baby why didnt u tell me sooner?"
i wanted to scream, :mad:
"woman, where the have u been?"
then i realised that she just didnt know. so i shut up. anything likethat ever happen to y'all?

oh and a query, at the party i noticed that when i spoke over the noise i stuttered a bit less and then as soon as the music cut i blocked horrendously and then got out of it as soon as the music started again.
was the music maybe a distraction or am i allergic to the sound of my voice?

[Standingtall]

Wow, your girlfriend is a doctor, at least you won't have to wait long to see one. I have fooled a lot of people in my days, and when I talked about my stutter to a few of my friends, they couldn't believe I stutter. Some have said, so!

Women are always right, but we do get the last word in. 'Yes Dear'. She must have noticed it, but seen you in action, must have really opened her eyes. So did you get to see that doctor yet and if so, what did he tell you.

[llw03c]

i can see something like this happening to me since i'm a covert stutterer...then again if its a long time gf i'm sure i would have told her sooner or later.

[nbakunda]

first of all let me say that i am not a covert stutterer. i stutter badly all the time and she knows it. i just dont stutter as badly when speaking to her. i guess i feel more secure around her. or its a miracle!
so anyway i've just been to the doctor/shrink. he's actually a psychiatrist and he tried to psychoanalyse me. first thing in the morning i have some poisonous little toad asking me annoying questions about things i cant even remember! and then everytime i tried to answer he got this patronizing little smile on his face and i just wanted to hit him, the arrogant little shit! i just walked out. :mad:
i am so angry right now i can almost taste blood. i havent talked to the person that started this all and i hope i can calm down before then.
i mean what the hell is wrong with me? i'm sure u guys can at least produce intelligible language. i cant even do that. i hate doctors right now.
nate

[happy7117]

Was he patronizing you cause of the stuttering??

If so I would of slugged him--or told one of his
superiors...

Scumball docters or "quacks" should be
avoided!!

But it's hard to know who the scumbums
are untill after we met them!!!

[nbakunda]

ok thats it i am officially in HELL. i went and had a talk with eves descendant and got called and "ungrateful sod" among other other things. she reckons i and all other stammerers have an annoying habit of "assigning evil motives to people". apparrently the doc got to her first!
so i sat and thought about it and well maybe its true, for me anyway. i think maybe i overeact to things that i can only prove to myself. you know?
so i wrote the bugger an apology and went to give it to him. unfortunately he said that even though he accepts it and all and he understands he is not a speech therapist but a psychiatrist but if i ever need to talk to someone he takes checks!
so i kinda feel like the guy that took hid gun to town and shot himself in groin. :o

[Standingtall]

Johnny Cash, right, "son, don't take your guns to town'. Sorry to hear about your doctor trip and that reallly gets my goat. You shouldn't have to apologize for anything. They just want to keep you down, make you feel inferior, so they could feel good about themselves thinking they are saving someone's life. This is where I would stutter on purpose just to irrate him. Arrogant little P.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!