19 year old college student

[Arwitty]

Hello! I am currently attending college in Indianapolis. I have stuttered for as long as I can remember. I consider it my deepest secret (that's usually not so secret) and the thing that causes me the most shame. I tend to ask myself why I am different and how can I "fix myself". My stutters tend to increase in presentation and large group settings. So, I do my best to avoid them at all costs. STUTTERING DICTATES MY WHOLE LIFE! I know it shouldn't, but I hate not being able to do a BASIC life function as well as anyone else. It has even affected my chosen career path

Even in classroom settings. I read the material just as well, if not better than anyone. I should be able to talk about it just as well too!

I saw the SpeechEasy on Oprah and Good morning America. I know it's not a cure, but it's worth a try. I have read several negative posts about it. I am praying that God has some sympathy on me to let something work.

I have spent many sleepless nights crying myself to sleep over my frustrations

Sorry this is so jumbled

Please talk to me! I am very interested in meeting others who have a problem similar to mine.

[Box of Clocks]

Welcome to the forum. I can relate to much of what you were saying in particular the fact that your stutter gets worse in big groups as mine is much the same.

I have read mainly negative things about the speech easy but as you say it would probably be worth a try.

[LCbatman]

Wassup man. I'm 20 and I dropped out a year and a half ago. My social anxiety was so bad, that I passed the point of no return during the last two weeks of the 2009 fall semester and stopped going and recieved letter E and I grades for incomplete. On top of that, my college's financial office tried to come up with some bs and sent me a letter saying that I unofficially withdrew and owed them the money that I took out in loans(that semester) immediatly. I could have appealed it by bringing in proof (like a test or document signed by a teacher), but didn't because I had so much anxiety.

I never stepped foot on campus again, and it takes up 1/2 of downtown. I felt soo relieved up until 6 months ago when I realized I wasn't living the life I could be living. I have made plans to go back, but first have plans of overcoming anxiety and fear in all situations.

[girlygirl0]

I am on the same boat. My stuttering is minor but it dictates my whole life. My mind is consumed about my stuttering! The only time I am not thinking about my stuttering is when I'm sleeping (thank God). I am going to be applying to graduate school in a few months (physician assistant). I do not know what I am going to do about my interview... :(