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[Livelife]

Hey I'm Jen,

I am 14 and I have stuttered since a child. My stutter is very strange, because I started to stutter in the 1st or 2nd grade, then I met my best friend in the third grade and my stutter almost disappeared. Then in the fifth grade I moved to another school and my stutter came back. Then went away in the seventh grade because I was reunited with my friend. But the stress in the eighth grade made it come back and here I am now, stuck with it forever. :mad: Ever since the eighth grade my life changed, no sleep (insomnia) :( , teasing, horrible teachers, etc.
Because my stutter was so sudden, my mom thinks I'm making it up!!! :mad::( I just don't understand :confused: and I wish she would support me instead of yelling and telling me to stop stuttering, bla bla bla. Now I'm trying to get help behind her back sadly... but if I get help maybe it will stop. I have tried everything but no one seems to care. Then I found this place and I'm pretty excited!!!. :D :) I just hate it when I get stuck on a word and my mom, my brother, or anyone else looks at me as if I'm stupid. I'm actually in the eighth grade in algebra with straight A's, not trying to brag but making a point. (seriously not trying to hurt anyone) :) .
I have learned so many tricks that No one really knows I stutter, but I live in constant fear of slipping up. My tricks are tapping my hand, nodding my head, or acting like I forgot what I was going to say and i works pretty well. Last week I had to do a 8-12 min. presentation and it was torture, I couldn't say a thing with out blocking, of course I got past the 8 min mark. It was really embarrassing for me though no one seemed to care.
I just wish I could let it out and accept it but first my mom has to understand, but I don't know how to get her to. She is REALLY religious and so am I but she doesn't understand anything. I just wish that when I try and talk to her she will just shut up and listen.
Could you guys help me figure out how to get her to understand? Just like give some ideas that you did or think of. And also how do you control your stutter or what do you do hide it or show it to the world? I have been think about talking to my school counselor or something but I'm terrified of talking about this to anyone. Should I? What could she do? Sorry it's so long, but thank you and Live Life to the fullest! :D

[genmed]

Hey Jen, Im so sorry, your going thru what your going thru, I started stuttering as a child as well, but did'nt notice it tell I was in 7th grade, your right ppl can be hurtfull, but you just have to understand ,that you can beat this,ar at better get an hold of it,keep seeking help, there is alot of help out there,Im 41 now, I went round and round for so many years thinking I had more of a socail anxiety problem causing my situational stuttering, but im finally ging to start going to a slp for help, dont give up, you deserve to be happy (:

[Box of Clocks]

Welcome to the forum.

I'm a pretty covert stutterer as well and in the long run I think this probably causes more problems as you are constantly worried about being exposed. It is maybe best to try and be more open about it but of course that is easier said than done.

Regarding your mom it is unfortunate that she is not supporting you. Maybe find some articles or online videos about stuttering and show her those to try and educate her about it a bit?

It would probably be a good idea to speak to the counsellor as they may be able to arrange some speech therapy for you (not sure if it would help but perhaps worth a try) or she may help you tell your teachers about the problem so they don't pick on you to read in class and such so often. Perhaps telling a counsellor will also make the problem seem more 'real' to your family.