An Amazing But Frusterating Thing

[happy7117]

This has been happening to me for a long time now, but I was hesitant to post because I doubt if anyone will have a good reason as to why..it's very unusual...

I cannot talk without the help of someone else..now I know that may not make any sense..but I don't understand it either..

When I start to stutter, I can literaly hear and see the word in my head coming out fluently, but I just can't say it the way I am able to hear it...god this is so hard to explain...

I can hear myself saying it perfectly, and it's literaly on the tip of my mouth, but I still stutter and it does not come out...

And it makes it even harder for the person waiting. Why they are told to be patient as I stutter, in my mind I want them to NOT be patient but to help with the word I just can't say physicaly..but mentaly I can hear the word in my head saying it perfectly, but physicaly I can't say it...

It's like when I stutter, my mind and what I am able to hear are saying to me, "HEP ME LISTENER, I AM STRUGGLING, I JUST NEED YOUR HELP ON THIS WORD I CAN HEAR MYSELF SAYING FLUENTLY..JUST START TALKING TO ME SO I CAN INTERUPT YOU, SO I CAN GET MY MESSAGE OUT.."

And also as I said at the beginning, if I talk by myself, I will not get anything out, I mean NOT ANYTHING, it will be holy hell, and I am desperately wanting someone to talk as soon as I have trouble so I can get myself unstuck....but UNBEKNOWST to them, they are being patient with a type of stuttering they just don't understand..I need their outside voice to talk along with to keep me from stuttering like heck....without their outside voice for me to help me, I could go on and on...the point is the more patient they are, the more desperate I get for them to help me with what I would like to say.....

I guess that's my point with all my posts on listeners that should not be patient with a stutterer, because stutterers may be feeling desperate while the listeners patiently say nothing...

So basicaly, as long as I have an outside listener to interupt as they start talking, I will be fluent always..

But as long as I start stuttering a ton knowing that I can say it fluently, but I am physicaly unable to without interupting someone else as they are talking is totaly hell....

Meaning it is true talking along with chorus will make a stutterer fluent, but if one has a stutterer where that second voice can only be heard if another person is talking..then that stutterer may be depending on that second person talking for quite a long time...

Another point, if I stuck a Speecheasy in my ear, I most likely would not be able to follow it for some reason, but if I followed a person's voice who was talking right next to me, I would be able to follow that person's voice and not stutter....

Please say someone truly understands this post, it has been nagging at me for like a year now, and I have no clear way of explaining..but it is so angering...

It goes back to that analogy, I can see the words fluently, but I just cannot express them fluently without another one for me to talk along with....

[bignick]

Happy,

I understand what you are saying, I have a different problem to you and that is for example if I am going to the take away and have to order some food, I am walking along and start to tell myself what I need to order, I struggle on a certain thing to order and begin to think that I cant say the words when I actually get into the shop. True enough I cant get the words out because I have had negative thoughts.

I have now started to stop myself from having negative thoughts and start telling myself that I can order whatever I want and it seems to work.

From reading your posts, your stutter is really bad and you need people to help you get your words out. Its very difficult for people you are talking to to understand that you want them to help out, as you are aware some stutterers hate people saying the words and some need them to help them out.

Each stutterer is different but we all experience problems with our speech.

Nick

[Standingtall]

Adam, I feel you. I don't see words in my head, just pictures. I am at the stage now, if I am alone and need to get something to eat. I think of what I want to eat and how much money I have. But, if I am ordering for an group of people, let say an drive through, then I think about my stutter. Maybe instead of feeling desperate for people's help, you can think, hey this person is being extremely patience, I own it to them to keep trying. To let people know you need help but interrupt you or filling in words for you. You have to find a way to let them know. Good luck and hang in there.

[happy7117]

Happy,

I understand what you are saying, I have a different problem to you and that is for example if I am going to the take away and have to order some food, I am walking along and start to tell myself what I need to order, I struggle on a certain thing to order and begin to think that I cant say the words when I actually get into the shop. True enough I cant get the words out because I have had negative thoughts.

I have now started to stop myself from having negative thoughts and start telling myself that I can order whatever I want and it seems to work.

From reading your posts, your stutter is really bad and you need people to help you get your words out. Its very difficult for people you are talking to to understand that you want them to help out, as you are aware some stutterers hate people saying the words and some need them to help them out.

Each stutterer is different but we all experience problems with our speech.

Nick

From reading your posts, your stutter is really bad and you need people to help you get your words out. Its very difficult for people you are talking to to understand that you want them to help out, as you are aware some stutterers hate people saying the words and some need them to help them out.



Exactly, you hit the nail with the hammer..I can literaly hear with my ear what I want to say fluently, but my mouth does not move according to what I am am able to hear...and that's why the stutter is so nasty, and when I get stuck..

It's not the kind of stuck where people should wait for me to say it, but it's the kind of stuck where people are listening and being patient that makes me stuck...and in the case where I know the person is waiting for me to say something, makes me stuck more, and a total feeling of desperation comes over me for them to help me express what I cannot

[Standingtall]

What annoys me the most is people thinking that I'm on limited intelligence due to my speech. .
I hear you very well on this point.

[Standingtall]

Your hearing not gone selective then? :D
Huh, what did you say?